Wednesday, December 9, 2009.

KU LE......

(this post is a compo long)
Hmm long long ago ... i felt that i will post this

Omg i think can let go of u le : D i reali can le !
God said: its time to go and move on and let go of all my things and follow him ...
i was like God really ?? i can let go ?? : D , He said yes! i was over the moon ! its was byebye to u
in my life ! : D no more heartpains , no more heartaches , no more wishful thinking no more stress !
i am gonna be free ! YIPPEE!!!!

i dun like the way u do things
i dun like the way u present ur self to ppl
i dun like the way u think
i dun like so much about u ! XD God had givn me a way !
how can i live with u if u were to be my wife ? wah sure every day quarrel , okay lah dun say marriage, say
stead, wah sure quarrel until both damage until bu xiang yang sure headache..
i was so happy letting go ! its was so fun until ...

UR SMS CAME....

then now i feel like posting this....

i was like no !!!!!!!!!!!!!! wei sher merh !!!!! why why tell me why !!!!!!!!!!! i was let-ing go le! now i am really crying .... why at this time i letting go of u , u sms me ? jus see-ing ur name is enough for me to go crazy .... to the both side of extremes ... high like i was eating 3 big bars of sweet chocolate, super high : D sad until i like lost everything i have ... very depressing.... this time its the negative extreme.. i saw ur name on my hp ringing ...skippyskippydododium skippyskippydododium ..im a scatman~! there it goes ringing...somepart of me inside was .. screaming ... somepart me were rejoicing celebrating that u sms me -_- i noe its lame but , thats how i feel ... cant explain that special feeling ... then i was like God how ? He kept quiet ...then i was very confuse ... my mind went into a twirl ... spinning... spinning...
why am i sms-ing u ? then my mind i am falling .... slowly , question that came out of my head to
ask me , dont u feel happy sms-ing her ? dont u wanna sms her ? why are u with her? do you know ur limits ? are u sure that she is okay with it ? do you think he is okay with it ? hes ur good fren ! are u sure he is not hurt ? the worst question came out was this .... why didnt u chase after her ?.... im was happy to say that i defeated all the question... the last one the most painful but also the most easy one... very simple and straight . she dun even like me at all , she got a boyfriend .. a good one ... why would she even wanna care about me ?why do i needa worry ? XD but i was wonderring wor an lian ni so long , is reali love anot ?

if my love for you its not real i cant hold it my hands,
i cant feel it with my heart....so i will be conviced that i dont love you
......but.....
i can feel it in my hands .... the love cupped and hidden from view
i can feel it from heart.. it always so real .. the refreshing feeling always when i see you . why the refresh feeling ? cos in my heart the love is always wearing apart .. jus by seeing you it refresh the love and its in my heart .. the heart is in my body it refresh together.... wow how incredible love is ... and dangerous can love be ... incredilble till its save lives . dangerous till it destroy lives , relationships.
if u are to get angry that i love her ... to those who are angry , pls get a life , i am not some super human who can jus forget everything at a instance -_- and i am trying to forget im trying to let go ? for the past 7 mths its pure toture !? why? once i let go wah its super tong okay -_- dun force me , i know myself ... if thats too much for me . i will do smth stupid so i dun wan to let that happen ... i dun need a relationship to sustain me .. people pls dun think that i am a despo for realtionship : D cos i know that relationship its jus to bring each other closer , and having RESPONSIBILITY over the person , the things is i think now we have relationship is kinda -_- too young and not ready ... lets wait and see in the future ... what will happen XD to see my love for u is still burning so strongly like the past 7 mths...hmm maybe i saw ur answer le ._. u see me as a brother . a very caring brother not other else ... then if thats the case i will be ur best bro ! since the place of a lover was taken ... i still will stand strong to my motto , i wont go over the line ... but i will be at the lines edge ! hmm there this song that say how i feel ... bran u shut up im starting to like the song-_- the best of u and me by the mission district
why ? lyrics pls XD

chorus (my version cause no lyrics version so i translate me self XD)
~gotta hold on gotta hold on i dont wanna let u go~
gotta move on gotta move on and oh there something u should know
when the stars are what i see
it took the best of u and me~

wah seh super nice song XD my blog song is this =] u go listen bah =] hmm its reopened for awhile now soon this blog will be changed =] byebye readers ! =} tata~

those who wanna critize ths blog or what pls do so cos ur are retards of the world =] and to post also =]

Labels: a stone from my chest lifted.... what a wonderful feeling~