Monday, March 8, 2010.

Hi , its quite awhile since i post , hmm its quite dramatic for me lately 0.0 too much things i kinda know will happen in the future , are happening ? like i have come to known of friends who are deep deep in trouble to others with a silent heart of despair that are around me seeking me for help ... i wanna help, i wanna do something for them and i did it , as for the silent heart in despair ... im really sorry ! i wanna help , but THERE IS JUST NOTHING I CAN DO ! i feel lost ~ and there u go , its okay , its okay , inside im like oh no !!!!! then i was lost for words and like nothing jus seems to come out of my mouth when im trying to speak.....its hard for u to shoulder and go through this on your own , i really hope that ...a Miracles will happen to save u from the misery... i miss the cheerful u where u go disturbing us me ,brandon and jon and lots of people? u were like a tons of fun machine packed into a person and was delivered to us by your most Awesome God ! and we were happy =] but now its kinda empty ... i hope that u will be more understanding and be sad about this and Persevre !down this valley of dead and deadworks ! i believe in u !!! my always best company no matter what ! =]] and life was hard for others , my friend had a problem made me had to stay awake through out the nite !!!!!!! tired ~ really tired ~ hmm i think thats why they mean by "im at my last straw" its gonna snap soon if im not wrong ...if it was applied to me .. i too had friends that had a jioyous occasion =] she patch with her bf which she says that seh is totally in love with him... and as for myself ... i think i had too much of things in life ... its making falling down fast ... im tired ... emotions, physical, physcological problems.. and blah blah~ so much to do and say ... so little time and space ... i need a willing heart in myself ! hmm so bored i wanna see the power of God manifest in my life ... i need a touch from heaven...

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